It’s been 5 days. 5. And, let’s be sincere here. …I still love you. Though. ..I honestly wish I didn’t. And it’s not because I’m broken hearted. It’s not because life has grown shades darker since “life ended”. Nothing so melodramatic.
I wish I didn’t love you anymore because it’s a waste to love someone who does not love you back. It’s wasted effort. It’s wasted time. Because I need to give that to someone who gives a shit.
Because the 1-60 minutes of sparingly given attention were enough to create memories for a life time. Truth be told, I can’t find a reason to hate you. Implausible as it may seem…I still want you. Because love is stupid.
The saying that love is blind is stupid. Love isn’t blind. Love is seeing everything you normally see, but being unable to disregard the thing that is hurting you. In every other moment, upon realizing what the “thing” is thay is hurting you, you would walk away from that thing. With love, you’re drawn more to it…with no remorse in knowing that, very matter of factly, it’s bullshit this is happening to you. But it is. And yet, there you are.
Get over yourself and meet someone new. Not just one person…meet new people. Because the world was only dark while you were in the shadows of the masked indifference held for you in the confines of a false hope filled enclosure. The rest of the world awaits you with intrigue. Give them a chance.